“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
I have always struggles with perfectionism. Whether it was mastering the position as a pre-professional ballerina, reaching the “perfect” body as anorexia survivor, having the “perfect” diet as an orthorexia sufferer, getting straight A’s as a student, or making everyone happy as a people pleaser- my goal has always been perfection and anything else was unacceptable. I placed my self worth and my value on my ability to reach unobtainable levels that in reality do not exist and can never be reached because perfection does not exist.
For most of my life, I walked on egg shells- terrified to “mess up”. I truly believed if I did not do it all and do it all perfectly, I was “wrong”. I was a failure. I was not worthy. I was not enough. I never took risks or tried anything I may not be good at or had total control over.
Until one day I realized that while the risk of failure was and will always be there, the risk of never truly experiencing life was even greater.
We are only guaranteed one life- this one. So why not take the chance, no- the opportunity, to experience this world. To truly live life. To take risks, to mess up, to fail and to learn from it, to feel every emotion humanly possible- the good and the bad, to laugh, to cry, to try new things, to grow, to scare your soul.
If you are looking to connect with me, you can find me on Instagram @spoonful_of_sam where I inspire others to live their best lives through physical and mental wellness. I share health related content such as nutrition information and recipes as well as mental health discussions and personal growth anecdotes to encourage you to grow in all aspects of life so you can live well. I hope to connect with you soon.